Staci – I’m so glad that you said that. I often wonder if this is all in my imagination or if I’m just -so- mentally unstable that things bother me that don’t bother other people. I know exactly what you mean about feeling like you lose yourself more and more as time goes by in NL, I think I lost myself long ago. We’re not going anywhere though so I hope I find ‘me’ again soon!

Candy – Thanks for the post and it’s great that you didn’t take the bad humping too seriously. I’d probably cry and not write for a week hehe Hopefully he’ll be gentle!

How ya doing? I noticed your comment over at Desert Odyssey and you said you worried about the guy at the bottom of the rank for “humping” and how much it would suck to be the guy with one hump.

I am that guy, well, I’m a girl. and I got the lowest rank on his humping with one hump. He hated my blog. But i didn’t feel bad about it, I thought it was hilarious. Lucky isn’t into art or literature and said he didn’t know anything about art…and I post tons of pics of my paintings so it’s pretty hilarious. I enjoyed getting humped and met a few cool people and came to have a lot of compassion for Lucky because he says he doesn’t know anything about art…and I think that is a truly sad way to live in the world. Art is so cool and fun! So ther eis Lucky with a huge vacuous hole in his existence and I feel empathy for the poor guy. It’s really sad. Not everyone is exposed to the world and all the different people and art. It takes a lot of intelligence and curiousity and tolerance to look at art and enjoy it. Poor Desert odyssey…but maybe one day he will get out there and learn some stuff. in the meantime I loved being humped and I think he is a real character and I am happy for the exposure and experience. maybe one day he will get into art and revisit my blog. there is hope for everybody. I have a feeling one day he will love my blog, heh heh.

So…I thought I’d drop over to your blog and say hi and see if you have been humped yet and see what your blog is all about.

Don’t be afraid, I doubt you’d get the lowest score like I did…have fun and nice to “meet” you. But you know what? The lowest scored hump actually stood out to you didn’t it? I’m not as dumb as I look.

Cheers!!!
Candy

I am here via 25 peeps – hooray, I helped keep you there! – and had to add a link to you on my blog.

Wonderful writing!

I’m not saying that your only solution is to leave. No, no, no. But cut yourself some slack, girlie.

Besides, having a car might help with your overall outlook on things. :)

hope you figure what you want, unless of couse dont
then enjoy the journey nonetheless, unless of course you dont want to
then be safe and take care
and live in another of paradise..

gksden

As for the baby thing…I am staunchly childfree and always will be. It is for some people and not for others. Allow to make one point about kids. You can not melt them down and fuck them over again. (Sorry) BE SURE you want this. FOREVER.

You realize that now that you are very MEH about the babymaking, it could happen. I have read about that happening to SOoooo many people. Too many.

Hair colours, changing you mind about where to live, peircings etc etc..these are things you can change somewhat if you are truly miserable with your choice. A baby is not.

Either way, I hope you get what you want and are happy with it.

**HUGS**