On May 12th my husband and I celebrated our 12 year wedding anniversary. It’s still hard to believe we’ve been together so long as I don’t think either of us feel old enough to have been married for 12 years. Wasn’t it just a few years ago that we WERE 12?
A few days before we were clearing out our storage room when we came across my wedding dress. Well, I use the term “wedding dress” very loosely. It wasn’t really what I imagine a wedding dress to be, but it was all I could find to fit me at the time. It was more of a “*Sigh* It will have to do” dress. It wasn’t my dream dress and I did not feel pretty. I hated the way it felt, I hated the way it looked and truth be told, I was quite unhappy in it. I was, however, extremely happy to be marrying Xander, so I chose to concentrate on that.
As you can see from my selective crop back in the day, I couldn’t even stand full length photos of me in the dress. We got married before the day of digital cameras so this was scanned from the original photo years ago.
You’ll have to take my word on it.
So, on our anniversary we decided that I should try the dress on and see just how much I have changed since that day 12 years ago. I wasn’t quite expecting the results I got…
Looking at it now, it looks like something you’d wear to bed. It still makes me sad that instead of a beautiful wedding dress like all the girls dream of, that I wore something like this… BECAUSE IT FIT.
I am so glad that my days of wearing things I don’t even particular like like, simply because I manage to find them in my size, are coming to an end. I hope I never have to live that way again and am going to do everything in my power to see that it never happens because it feels horrible.
It’s so weird though, I look at the dress in the photos and can clearly see that it’s huge on me, yet I feel MUCH bigger now than I did when I wore it 12 years ago. When people say that it takes your head a while to catch up with what goes on in your body, they aren’t kidding. It’s so bizarre, seriously!
I think I’ll save it and try it on again next year!