In an effort to gain self confidence and deal with body image issues still remaining after my weight loss, I decided to take part in a 365 project focusing on self portraits. My hopes are that after a year of taking a photo of myself ever day, that I will stop hating photos of myself, stop picking apart the things I hate about my body and learn to accept myself in a way that I haven’t been able to before. It is uncomfortable, challenging and at times scary as I am also putting myself out there in a way I never have… but sometimes personal growth requires stepping out of your comfort zone. So this is my project, 365 days of Self Portraits…
Week 9 was another great week. I have become quite addicted to the 365project.org website and have spent a lot of time browsing, commenting and being encouraged by other members. It has really given me the drive to continue and put more and more thought into what I want to do with my photos, and what I want to get out of them. I find in a large way that my photos are not just “Hey, here is me looking in the camera” (although that will happen from time to time) but rather, a telling of my story and my journey. This has made it a lot more enjoyable and I find my confidence growing with each week, which is exactly what I hoped to get out of this project!
My favorite photo from this week is the pink nail polish photo! I used to love selective colorization but sort of got over it after a while as so many used it so much. It really seemed to suit that photo, though, and I really like it a lot! I also like the first photo, with the two version of me. I think it does a good job of showing what it’s like for me at the moment in regards to my body image and how I feel when I look in the mirror.
Day 57 - I want to love the girl in the mirror, but she doesn’t always make it easy.
After almost 140 lbs lost, it’s hard to overcome and ignore body and self esteem issues that have been with me almost my entire life. As the old saying goes… Rome wasn’t built in a day! Let’s just call it a work in progress…
Day 58 – Experimenting today… trying to learn about focus with my 50mm, learning about editing eyes and using textures in Photoshop.
Day 59 – I am not the only work in progress in the house… I have a very bad habit of starting things I don’t finish!
Day 60 – Taking part in a “Me March” challenge on 365project.org. Today’s theme was “Something I Wish”
I think this is pretty self explanatory!
Day 61 – Following a “Me-March” challenge on 365project.org. Today’s theme is “Something I play (with)”.
I play with nail polish!
Day 62 – Following a “Me-March” challenge on 365project.org. Today’s theme is “Something I step on…”
My husband is a hardcore Lego Mindstorms and robotics nut (www.botbench.com). He is really good about putting his stuff away but I think we both have still stepped on our share of Lego!
Day 63 – Following a “Me-March” challenge on 365project.org. Today’s theme is “Something I like to look at…”
I like to look at these books that my mother and grandmother made for me. They are called “To My Daughter with Love” and “Grandmother Remembers”. Books about their lives, loves and their relationship with me. I live an ocean away from my mother and lost my grandmother to Cancer when I was 21. I cherish these books.
Previous weeks of my 365 Days of Self Portraits project:
Weeks 1 & 2: Days 1-14
Week 3: Days 15-21
Week 4: Days 22-28
Week 5: Days 29-35
Week 6: Days 36-42
Week 7: Days 43-49
Week 8: Days 50-56