Today I said something I never thought I’d be saying to my husband. I don’t think he ever expected it either, but sometimes life brings you to places you never thought you’d be.
A little while ago I said the following words…
Honey, are you sure you don’t mind if I show everyone your sperm?
Really, how many people really ever have a situation where they have that conversation?!
Lucky for us, he doesn’t mind!
Today was our fifth IUI and while we were at the hospital the lady in the lab asked if we wanted to see Xander’s boys under the microscope. Umm, hell yeah we do!
It was SO cool to see! Of course, a few seconds after I saw it I thought hrmmm… if my eye can see them, maybe my camera can too! Sure enough, it worked! This photo is taken through the eye thingie on the microscope, cool huh?
It was a small sample that they use to look at the sperm during the sperm washing process. So none of these actually got to the final destination. They were the guiney pigs of sperm, so to speak.
It is a very stressful day for me, when we go for the IUI. I get extremely anxious and tense, so this sort of broke up the monotony and gave me something to giggle about for a few minutes, which was great.
I think I squealed a little when I realized that I actually managed to capture them on camera.
There are so many aspects of conceiving a child that we miss out on. For a lot of people it’s a really joyous occasion that doesn’t have any negativity connected to it at all. People make their babies the natural way, before tension and pressure manages to start to ruin their sex lives. They get to tell their children the “when two people love each other the man puts his…” story, whereas we’d perhaps end up telling the “Turkey Baster Story”.
As much as we will love a child if we are ever lucky enough to have one, the process has been grueling and we do feel like some of what other people get out of it has been ripped away from us.
Apparently there are some advantages of infertility though. How many women actually get photos of their man’s tadpoles?! The everyday woman who gets knocked up home in bed, in the backseat or on a park bench probably never get the opportunity to see the science of it all, and we have that all around us. That’s pretty cool…
Hey, every story needs a silver lining, and today this is mine!